New Layout

I changed the layout, hope you don't mind ;) It looks a little dark, idk but the old one was a bit... cutesy. Like, in a rainbows and cupcakes and sprinkles kind of way. I actually think the fish bones are adorable (I got some silver dangly fish skeleton earrings yesterday) haha. Yesterday I had a long walk around a shopping centre with a friend and her gf. Stayed over and they didn't make me eat anything which was cool. Zero cals the whole day :) I'm used to my other friends noticing when I don't eat, especially since one of them knows some of the story. Its nice that they don't take it too seriously though; they joke about me never eating which is a good sign that they aren't worried and a little reminder to be the person I want to be. Among other things, to them I'm the girl who doesn't eat. It's pretty funny in a way. Of course I do eat and I always say so. The last few days have been binge free. Also, my parents have decided to give my bro's allowance to me now that he's got a job and he gave me his old camera now that he has his fancy new one. I just need to buy a lens off ebay. I'm done with summer now, bring on the lovely cold weather! Going back to school soon though :( Homework, classmates and worst of all- eating lunch. I dunno how I'm going to get around that.
Oh well.

Braces

Hey everyone, hows it going? Hope youre all doing well. Sunday, I went to Summer in the City with a friend and got to meet TomSka which was awesome even though I already met him at MCM (btw I'm a nerd) he was very cool and gave everyone a hug. It rained really heavily for ten minutes and there were some really skinny girls there which made me feel pretty bad. I ended up bingeing. Tuesday, me and three friends went on a spur of the moment trip to Thorpe Park (a theme park for anyone who doesn't know) and I had a cracker and nothing else which was awesome. Minor binge on Wednesday. Yesterday was a good day and I also met up with a friend and I bought the most awesome tweed-elbow-patch-doctor-who blazer from H&M after my orthodontist appointment. It's ten past seven in the morning now and im getting braces in just under an hour. Booh :( but I suppose my teeth will be straight which is good. Also I just wanted to remind anyone that my iPad has some kind of fault that won't let me type comments or replies to comments but I'm working on fixing it. I might start using my laptop in the near future anyway and hope my parents don't see. Lol.

Fail. Faaaaail. Failfailfail.

Just got back from my nan's three and a half hours plus traffic. No more pear cider, giant cookies and takeaway. I'm afraid to weigh because I'm so fat right now. My legs are okay ish. Thighs Idek and my stomach which was getting better now look pregnant. Fucking hell. And my periods back. Anyone got any clue about this? It started when I visited my nan up north and it carried on for a few months and went away. Now its back for the first time, I got it the day after I got there. What the hell? Maybe it's the air. Hope you're all ok, gonna go take a much needed shower.

Idontevenknowwhatdayitis

Hi guys, I just want to say that my iPad is being weird and won't let me comment or reply to comments but to the lovely commenters, thanks and I hope you're all doing well. Stupid technology. Idek.

I'm going up north to Lancashire to visit my nan today. It's just going to be me and my mum (and my nan obviously) as my dad's working and my bro just got a new job and can't ask for time off. He's earning £50 a day by the way which is pretty amazing as he's 17 and it's more than twice minimum wage. Anyway he lives at home so it's not going on rent or anything; he's saving up for a new camera and he also has a surprise for me apparently. Aww <3 my bros great but very loud (hes my polar opposite including the fact that he eats tons of crap and stays thin as a rake) and so I'm looking forward to peace and quiet this week. And it will be doubly quiet where my nan lives too.

Anyway, onto the important stuff. I binged pretty bad yesterday. Crackers, 3 fucking club bars, strawberries, cream, and leek and and potato soup. But weirdly I don't feel that awful. It was kind of like I'd been doing so well lately (even though  didn't lose) it was to be expected and I kind of welcomed it. Now I can get back to restricting.

Good luck everyone x and have a great week!

What the hell?

I've not binged these past few days and I've not lost any weight :( well, I weighed yesterday (I think? I'm losing track of time now) and I'm still at 114 and it sucks! I'm living off of crackers, coffee and soup, also anyone looking to stop bingeing, go out and buy a copy of The Sims 3. It's so addictive I forget to eat. I've been a simmer since I was small and now my laptop is fixed I'm doing little else. Yeah it's not healthy but neither is restricting, so....
Anyway I went to the dentist yesterday and he numbed my mouth with like fortytwo fucking needles and now my lip is swollen where I chewed it in my sleep. I can't abide going to the dentist. It's just wrong, sitting there with your head practically in some strangers lap while they put their hands in your mouth?! Maybe I'm just being neurotic. Idk. Still, as dentists go mines pretty good; he sings and tells me about the stupid things he's done like giving himself a black eye at the gym.
Here's some thinspo that was already on this blog. Stupid iPad compatibility issues. Haha, I'm working on it honestly :)

So yeah, fun times. I've now got a very attractive swollen lip :/ wooh.

Eurgh...

Hi everyone sorry I've been so nonexistent lately :( I didn't sleep last night, gave up trying at around four in the morning and played sims instead. Fucking addictive. Anyway I've been up something like 36 hours and I've had two crackers, a smallish portion of veggie stir fry with no sauce and a chocolate eclair. Yuck. Also a shit load of coffee. I've switched to decaf so that I can save regular for emergencies like this morning when I desperately needed to be awake. I'm so stupid I drank decaf by mistake. I'm not sure if what I'm typing makes sense either. Haha. I'm trying to proofread, honestly I am but the words aren't cooperating. I must be tired. Ha.
I binged three days ago, like serious bingeing and I'm at 114 lbs. incidentally I'm apparently the same height and weight as Megan fox but idk if thats current, I just came across it on google. She's all muscle anyway and I'm just a big fat pile of useless flabby lard. With big feet. Yeah.
Anyway, just wanted to catch up, nothing much else to say apart from hope youre all doing well and feeling good. I'm still reading blogs even when I'm not commenting or updating anyway. Goodnight. X