I really over-ate today. Tomorrow, I've just decided I'm going to fast. I can throw away my breakfast discreetly, maybe avoid Em and K at lunch break and avoid dinner with a faked stomach ache. This will be hard. I want to be thin so badly.
ps. Ignore time-stamps on posts, its quater to ten right now.
Gonna just reply to your last two posts in one go. Something I realised a little while ago is that having an eating disorder is really no one else's business. Like even your parents cannot force you to eat. Your school can't. No one can. Yeah they will bitch and moan, make ultimatums and threats, but at the end of the day short of sending you to a clinic which you can refuse there is NOTHING they can do about it. So fuck 'em. You are your own person. I do think however you need to think out a long term thing for your situation, since if you restrict too heavily they can force you into treatment. If you can get to a regular intake of 500 - 800 cals a day, this is not overly unhealthy and you can still maintain. Check out http://insidetheotherme.blogspot.co.uk/ - Miranda taught me some useful stuff. I don't mean to preach if it sounds like I am. Just you know. We all need support and advice in a world that doesn't understand our problems.
ReplyDeletethanks for the advice :) I might consider going up to 500 as it would be easier to maintain and probrably would lead to less binges. Although I do find that if I eat more than breakfast and dinner, I end up going overboard. Will be sure to check out this site. Thanks again :)
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